Earlier today, my friend Laura commented on a couple of my old blogs, which brought me back here. I found myself reading some of my old posts and remembering why I loved blogging.
From 2009 to 2011, I blogged fairly regularly– mostly during my time in France, but recorded deep within the pages of this blog is my own personal history. The thoughts, emotions, memories, rants, and dreams of a girl that had a lot to say and wasn’t afraid to share. This blog was both my private story and my public outlet, and I realize that this was an important part of my life, for much longer than I acknowledge now.
I stopped blogging rather abruptly, and sometimes I think about why I made that decision. I didn’t really explain it on here– I posted once in January of 2012, but beyond that, I made the fatal blog mistake of disappearing. I’m still around on the internet– my tumblr is pretty active, but it isn’t a personal blog so much as a collection of things I like.
The thing about this blog is that it became a bit of a chore after a while– it began to feel like something I HAD to do, rather than something I wanted to do. It became a far-too-public forum for me to feel comfortable sharing some of the experiences that I had previously written about without even thinking twice. As I get older, I become more aware that the internet is a very public thing and in most cases, there are things that really ought to be kept private. There are things that are difficult to share, and not knowing who reads my blog made me feel vulnerable.
Furthermore, this blog ceased to be about “Aly en France”. It became a personal blog, for my own benefit (and the benefit of anybody that cared to read what I have to share), and the transition struck me as awkward.
It may be time to start blogging again. My distance from France does not mean that is no longer part of my identity or my lifestyle.
With that in mind, here’s to a new year– and maybe a new blog. As my tumblr states: my heart is in France, and I am here. Life is ongoing, and I may be ready to share it again.